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Seen and not heard

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"children are seen and not heard."

I shiver at the words yet again. These words have been my life for so long.
I keep my head down, eyes away.

He's 30 something. He's married to my mom.
He's by no definition of the word a dad.
He's an abusive ass.

Most of the moments of my life are a blurr.
Whether my mind is attempting to erase them, or something happened for me to not remember, I'm not completely sure.

There are some other phrases that also determined my life.
"You have no opinion"
"your opinion doesn't matter"

So many I can't remember... what were they?
It doesn't matter.

I sit once again in my quiet room.
The moonlight through the blinds is a nightly occurence.
I'm sat with my knees to my chest.
I'm tired, but I do not sleep. It's been a long time since I've last slept.
My stomach grumbles.

Mom was at college tonight, so I ended up without dinner again...
I'm so hungry.
Why can't it be morning?
I don't make a single noise. Is this my life?

I peer at my arm. It still hurts.
It's been 3 days since he hit me, why isn't the pain at least dulled?

no... the physical pain isn't...
but the psychological is...
I don't feel anymore.
I've locked my emotions away so I won't be hurt.

In this lonely place.
I have often cried myself late into the night to near depths of sleep.
... Based off of my life.
This was my life for 13 years.

My arm stil hurts after all this time.
I have nerve damage in it.

Don't call me an attention whore, bc I'm not, I wrote this to:
1. Vent some seriously bottled up emotions. :|
2. Spread awareness about child abuse

Child abuse is a terrible crime, that I and many others have been victims of.

If you haven't been a victim of it, then I'm going to say this:
I'm extremely jealous of you, life must be awesome.
It's terrible for someone your supposed ot trust to end up hurting you, and I pray you will never have to know it, because it's painful.
Both physically and mentally, it is painful.
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tiaxanwaralldahway's avatar
XP Rotten son of a...
MERRRR. NOW I'M ALL WORKED UP ABOUT THIS.:XD:
But anyways, make me wanna post a poem I have. I didn't write it, though. I found it and copied it down for my friends to read. It's really sad and kinda scary, actually.